Just thinking

I have a lot on my mind.....


Since I've returned from my training in Birmingham, my life seems to have gotten boring. My days are pretty routine and consist primarily of work, work-outs, and watching TV. On the weekends I see my boyfriend, or he comes to see me and besides that I really don't do much. At first this was refreshing but now I'm feeling like there is this small leak in my life that's slowly releasing the passion that I once had.

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Next... P90x... It's kicking my ass. I've only done 2 days but this is hard. Don't get me wrong, I'm still excited about the program. I'm still going to stick with it... but damn, my body hurts.

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I am my mother's daughter. I really am. I almost popped off on someone the other night at dinner. I was with a friend who tried to dictate to me what I was, and what I was NOT going to do with my money when they don't even know my financial situation. That really got me going, and I don't know if it's something I'm willing to let go of since this person does crap like this all the time. The worst part is I know that the reason they tried to flex their muscles was because other people were around. I have NO RESPECT for someone who will show-out on you in front of people to get attention, or to seem cool, or look funny... because it WON'T be funny when I punch them in their lip for telling me (a grown ass woman who takes care of my own shit) what to do! (Writing all that felt really good)

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I love my boo, but dammit if the Scorpio inside me doesn't leave me curious sometimes. That's all I'm going to say about that.

Get Ripped!

I don't know many people who don't want to change their body, and if you've seen mine (at least the ways I've seen mine) you would want to do a major overhaul. So, since I've tried all sorts of things I figured I would try yet another exercise program... p90x. Tomorrow will be the first day I start this program and I'm excited and not excited. Today I said to my boyfriend "What is so wrong with my willpower that I can't get where I wanna be (concerning my weight)". Do I not have enough patience? Really what is the problem?

Well, either way I'm excited because I've wanted to try p90x for a while but I didn't want to pay the money for it. My sister is conveniently pregnant and had purchased it so now I have negotiated my way into p90x for free. I do have to say the equipment needed for the program can cost you a pretty penny... but hell, why not try. I'll update yall frequently. Wish me luck and hopefully for those of you who don't see me often, I'll look a little better.